you finish off as an orgasm

I want to live my next life backwards. You start
out
dead and get
that out of the way. Then you wake up in a nursing
home feeling
better every day. Then you get kicked out for
being
too healthy. Enjoy
your retirement and collect your pension. Then
when
you start work,
you get a gold watch on your first day. You work
forty
years until
you are too young to work. You get ready for high
school; drink
alcohol, party, and your are generally
promiscuous.
Then you go to
primary school, you become a kid, you play, and
you
have no
responsibilities. Then you become a baby, and
then…
you spend your last nine months floating
peacefully in
luxury, in
spa-like conditions – central heating, room
service on
tap, and then,
you finish off as an orgasm.

on a delimma

it has been days since i received the message
it wasn’t just a bad news, but a terrible plight
it had me thinking deep..how come? how could it be possible?
it was a tragedy when she lost her mom
it is just after a year when her brother unexpectedly died
it is uncanny for death to take her father now

i am on a delimma
i should react
i should call or send a comforting message
i should show i feel her pain
i must make known ; her loss , has made my heart sadly heavy
i must be there ; the friend she needs and who i want to be at this perplex time of her life
i should reach out to her..the soonest…

but i am left with a delimma
but even if i know what i should and must do
but i just can’t move
but i find it hard to understand
but i can’t seem to know how to extend myself and know what to say
but this is just too overwhelming
but life in moments like this makes you numb

it is a delimma
i am limited to figure how to empart my presence and concern
but this is just too much; death comes- should be not a
surprise as it is inevitable and known to come to man one day-
but when it comes as dreadful and as harsh as this- you just
become motionless.. and forced to understand and ask
what is the truth..

what is the purpose of this?