Today is “ the” dreaded day..it is six o’clock in the morning..i am alone awake..wondering restlessly what tomorrow will be..the “day” has arrive..the start of the journey of waiting..the beginning closer of knowing the truth….the truth..the end..what is..but before that, is the state of nothingness..and today is its commencement..an uncertain path..a dim road..with vague directions..the waiting of not knowing..dreadful ..yes..hopeful yet emptied..unclear..unsure..feared..

 

a time to panic?.a time to plan again?..a time to work harder..a time of idleness?..i dn’t know..but i know..it is a time to pray..is it time to let go of the dream?..the second home i got used to?..or the time to hold on further to see light..or is this another false hope?..is staying foolish?..must patience be extended ?..is it worth the linger?..only God knows..

 

what must one do i ask my self..do I let go?..staying for something unknown or of deciding to let go of something you are not sure of what is.. two things that gives my mind no peace and makes my heart heavy..terrified to think of the loose ends , making you insecure and unsafe..you wish you have the answers outright..so there will be no waiting..only certainty and control..but it is a luxury i can only fantasize at the moment..

 

the day has come..the day where some have left and others challenged to wait..yes..the day the fate shall be realized..this is its beginning..let it be positive..let it be favorable…wished and prayed..but..here now..is the dreadful beginning..yes..”the” dreaded day..

 

how do you experience love?

“LOve again is ironic because it presents itself as a simple reality , the easiest emotion to feel and share but then as you not only feel it but understand it or dig into the core of it then it presents a different face…no longer simple but its as complex as life and death… This is how i experienced love …”

GREY’S ANATOMY

Grey’s Anatomy.a tv show i have been addicted to, ever since Josh (a student of mine) introduced it to me and lent his step mom’s cd containing the show’s season 1 and 2.for three days ,i watched the series ..only allowing breaks and pauses  for food,water,bath..and sleep- and only because my eyes were tired and strained. it was the longest video marathon i ever did..hence, an addiction to the show. it didn’t even stop there. after the last episode of season 2, i started waiting for hours- spending time and electricity, downloading season 3..i must admit..i fell in a trance, the world outside just suddenly stopped for a tv show..i cried,laughed a lot,felt loss,felt every pain and joy,surprised and amazed of its twists and turns..in short..i related with it intensely..it reminded me of my past, made me in tune with my present, and gave me clues on how to live my future. its script, is beautifully written .  and i must say, it does have a sense of realism – of which Gio (a friend who is now an intern at the PGH) begs to disagree. well maybe not what actually happens on the hospital floors and operating tables, but with how people react and respond on life’s challenges. may it be reacting or responding to love earned or love lost, to making or breaking a career, to keeping or lossing friends, to accepting or denying truths, to holding or letting go of control, to attachments or detachments, to the call of flesh or the spirit, to sanity or madness..all of what being humane is about. i specially like how it presents “An experience, example, or observation that imparts beneficial new knowledge or wisdom” -lessons in life,such as the high and lows of adolescence, the idea of God, religion, hypocricy..et. al..and the soundtracks ..of course..music makes it more dramatic, right!….so – i am a certified fanatic of the tv series..more than i am with 24 or sex and the city or prison break.

what to do in times like this??

i have had a few crushes in law school..usually they are classmates i find brilliant and too cute to be a geek..now i have a new crush…he is really cute..and brilliant..not a geek..because his got the muscle toned figure..a bold and bald head..kissable lips and really adorable eyes..one guy many women in school really fall for..his got the brains and the body.. hehehe..my certified crush!..

normally..i study hard and make good in exams or recitations..or flirt in the library,dean’s office or hall ways where i see a crush..just so i get to be noticed..

but this time..i need not to do all that..coz..he knows me..yeah he does..
and that is becuase his bestfriend has been inviting me out…

OH WHAT TO DO IN TIMES LIKE THIS??

a simple funny thing to share

True Words
> Can’t Make This Stuff Up
>
> These are from a book called Disorder
in the
> American Courts and are things
> people actually said in court, word
for word, taken
> down and now published
> by court reporters who had the torment
of biting
> their lip to stay calm
> while these exchanges were taking place.
>
> Q: Are you sexually active?
> A: No, I just lie there.
>
_____________________________________________________________
>
> Q: What is your date of birth?
> A: July 15.
> Q: What year?
> A: Every year.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: What gear were you in at the moment
of the
> impact?
> A: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: This myasthenia gravis, does it
affect your
> memory at all?
> A: Yes.
> Q: And in what ways does it affect
your memory?
> A: I forget.
> Q: You forget? Can you give us an
example of
> something that you’ve
> forgotten?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: How old is your son, the one living
with you?
> A: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I
can’t remember
> which.
> Q: How long has he lived with you?
> A: Forty-five years.
>
_________________________________________________________
>
> Q: What was the first thing your
husband said to you
> when he woke up that
> morning?
> A: He said, “Where am I, Cathy?”
> Q: And why did that upset you?
> A: My name is Susan.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Do you know if your daughter has
ever been
> involved in voodoo or the
> occult?
> A: We both do.
> Q: Voodoo?
> A: We do.
> Q: You do?
> A: Yes, voodoo.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Now doctor, isn’t it true that when
a person dies
> in his sleep, he does
> know about it until the next morning?
> A: Did you actually pass the bar exam?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: The youngest son, the
twenty-year-old, how old is
> he?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Were you present when your picture
was taken?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: So the date of conception of the
baby was August
> 8th?
> A: Yes.
> Q: And what were you doing at that time?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: She had three children, right?
> A: Yes.
> Q: How many were boys?
> A: None.
> Q: Were there any girls?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: How was your first marriage terminated?
> A: By death.
> Q: And by whose death was it terminated?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Can you describe the individual?
> A: He was about medium height and had
a beard.
> Q: Was this a male, or a female?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Is your appearance here this
morning pursuant to
> a deposition which I
> sent to your attorney?
> A: No, this is how I dress when I go
to work.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Doctor, how many autopsies have you
performed on
> dead people?
> A: All my autopsies are performed on
dead people.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK?
> A: Yes.
> Q: What school did you go to?
> A: Oral.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Do you recall the time that you
examined the
> body?
> A: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
> Q: And Mr. Dennington was dead at the
time?
> A: No, he was sitting on the table
wondering why I
> was doing an autopsy.
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Are you qualified to give a urine
sample?
>
______________________________________________________________
>
> Q: Doctor, before you performed the
autopsy, did you
> check for a pulse?
> A: No.
> Q: Did you check for blood pressure?
> A: No.
> Q: Did you check for breathing?
> A: No.
> Q: So, then it is possible that the
patient was
> alive when you began the
> autopsy?
> A: No.
> Q: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
> A: Because his brain was sitting on my
desk in a
> jar.
> Q: But could the patient have still
been alive,
> nevertheless?
> A: Yes, it is possible that he could
have been
> alive, practicing law
> somewhere.

you finish off as an orgasm

I want to live my next life backwards. You start
out
dead and get
that out of the way. Then you wake up in a nursing
home feeling
better every day. Then you get kicked out for
being
too healthy. Enjoy
your retirement and collect your pension. Then
when
you start work,
you get a gold watch on your first day. You work
forty
years until
you are too young to work. You get ready for high
school; drink
alcohol, party, and your are generally
promiscuous.
Then you go to
primary school, you become a kid, you play, and
you
have no
responsibilities. Then you become a baby, and
then…
you spend your last nine months floating
peacefully in
luxury, in
spa-like conditions – central heating, room
service on
tap, and then,
you finish off as an orgasm.

test your sense of sight!

http://www.winterrowd.com/illusions/

ok..i’ll make it up to you..:P
dn’t worry your not the first

http://www.winterrowd.com/prankedcoworker/

God Make ME a bILLIONAIRE!

The world is changing FAst FORWArd!!!
I need to be a billionaire! I can’t chase the world’s advancement with the the penny’s that i have..
Here is another new tech rising..and all i have within reach is a wishful thinking..
I want one for my birthday! lol..i know..wishful thinking..
God Make ME a bILLIONAIRE!

http://www.microsoft.com/surface/

fact and fiction

previous to this , i posted a story with a gruesome picture of a breast with maggots growing on it..i posted the same on my other blogs, and it turned out through comments and links providing informations; it was a faked edited picture and a story made up, however, the case is possible, infact, there was a reported actual incident..so here are the fact and the fiction.

FICTION

http://www.snopes.com/photos/medical/breastrash.asp

FACT

http://www.pubmedcentral.nih.gov/articlerender.fcgi?artid=394335
http://graphics2.snopes.com/photos/medical/graphics/breastrash.mpg

gruesome

a student of mine sent me this through email..it gave me the chills and up until now..i am bothered..the picture just kept playing in my mind..and i could not imagine how someone can allow something like this to happen..this is just too gruesome.. very unhygienic..it’s a classic case of self-negligence..what a horror!

i believe this happens to persons who take care less of their bodies..i have known that many from the western countries, do not practice taking a bath as often as one should..heard also that, its a common practice for them to reuse underwear : a.k.a. side b ,c ,d..as common and as simple as failure to get a daily bath or laziness to change underwear would lead to a a horrible plight as such..

now, breast cancer will not be the only thing i would worry about if i have chest pains ..it would always be in my mind – the paranoia of having worms building a have on it..no matter how much i would scrub my body with stones to get all the dirt..the paranoia will remain…lol…unwanted dwellers on my boobs..God Forbid!!!..still having the creeps..

without further ado..read on and see it for yourself!

After anthropologist Susan McKinley came back home from an expedition in South America, she noticed a very strange rash on her left breast. Nobody knew what it was and she quickly dismissed it believing that the holes would leave in time. Upon her return she decided to see a doctor after she started developing intense pains. The doctor, not knowing the exact severity of the disease, gave her antibiotics and special creams. As time lapsed the pain did not subside and her left breast became more inflamed and started to bleed. She decided to bandage her sores however as Susan’s pain grew more intense she decided to seek help from a more certified doctor. Dr. Lynch could not diagnose the infection and told Susan to seek the aid of one of his colleagues who specialized in dermatology whom was sadly on vacation. She waited for two weeks and finally was able to react the dermatologist. Sadly, a life-changing event was about to unfold during her appointment. To Miss McKinley’s surprise, after she removed the bandages, they found larva growing and squirming within the pores and sores of her breast. Sometimes these wicked creatures would all together simultaneously move around into different crevices. What she didn’t know was that the holes were in fact, deeper than she had originally thought for these larvae were feeding off the fat, tissue, and even milk canals of her bosom.